I’m currently spinning Shania Twain’s “Up!” in my player right now. It’s been a while since I’ve listened to the CD, and I’ve almost forgotten how…mellow it gets me.
I’m attempting everything to get me into an eased state of mind. This has included getting back into reading. I just finished “The DaVinci Code” which was a very good read. It’s certainly controversial and definitely not for everyone…but I figure that whether or not you believe in the theories presented in the book it’s still capable of expanding your way of thinking.
Oh? You don’t know what the theory is? Well, it has to do with the “Holy Grail” and the idea that it might not be a “cup” at all. I’ll leave it at that so as not to offend anyone.
At the moment I’m in the middle of Michael Moore’s “Stupid White Men”. This book is also an eye-opener, although I question where he gets some of his information. Whatever. It’s a bit entertaining to see things from his point of view. If I like the book enough by the end of it, I might go ahead and get the follow up, “Dude, Where’s My Country?” for shits and giggles.
After this book, next in line is the book “The Good, The Bad & the Difference”. It’s a book all about ethics and how people handle different situations. When I saw it in the bookstore I picked it up and leafed through a few pages. I don’t know, I thought it was interesting. I really do hope I’ll manage to read it.
My bookshelf is full of books that are half read. Now that I’m finished Final Fantasy X, I figured that I might as well go back and tackle them one by one. I desperately need to keep a positive attitude and an occupied mind in order to prevent me from sinking into “the other realm”, you know?
It’s bad enough that I’m now dreading work, but I don’t need any more ill-thoughts at home. Yes, I dread work. I’m sure millions of people feel the same, but I’ve never hit this level of apathy on the job before.
– Actually, now that I think about it, I might have been more apathetic when I was working for the school board…but that’s another story.
The job description isn’t all that bad. However, truthfully I’m not learning all that much actually related to my field of study–which really sucks. I mean, I see so many documents relating to how chip technologies work, but when my only job is to ensure documentation is alright (formatting and grammar) you begin to just pass things over looking for errors without actually attempting to absorb the stuff.
It’s a bit of a harsh assessment of the job. I mean, I’m not saying there aren’t its good moments too. However, at this moment, I’m not feeling any excitement for it at all. Simple as that.
It’s now mid-November. I still have a month and a half to go in my contract. I know I’ll make it through (of course, I will). Hopefully some of the positivity I hope to generate at home will permeate through to this part of my life.
God knows, I need some positivity.
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