Hmm. I was almost finsihed writing out a whole entry on heartbreak and learning to not fall in love, but thought it was a bit too sad, so I stopped writing it. Part of me wants to air out my thoughts on the matter…but I guess I’ll save it for another day.
I think the most I’ll say about it right now is that…I can’t allow myself to be hurt anymore.
Ganked this from Anne. Seems fairly accurate for me. Cool
Got it here: What Your Name Means (Numerology).
What your first name means:
| Greek | Male | A healing. In Greek mythology, the leader of the group of warrior heroes called the Argonauts. |
| Biblical | Male | He that cures |
Your number is: 7
The characteristics of #7 are: Analysis, understanding, knowledge, awareness, studious, meditating.
The expression or destiny for #7:
Thought, analysis, introspection, and seclusiveness are all characteristics of the expression number 7. The hallmark of the number 7 is a good mind, and especially good at searching out and finding the truth. You are so very capable of analyzing, judging and discriminating, that very little ever escapes your observation and deep understanding. You are the type of person that can really get involved in a search for wisdom or hidden truths, often becoming an authority on whatever it is your are focusing on. This can easily be of a technical or scientific nature, or it may be religious or occult, it matters very little, you pursue knowledge with the same sort of vigor. You can make a very fine teacher, or because of a natural inclination toward the spiritual, you may become deeply emerged in religious affairs or even psychic explorations. You tend to operate on a rather different wavelength, and many of your friends may not really know you very well. The positive aspects of the 7 expression are that you can be a true perfectionist in a very positive sense of the word. You are very logical, and usually employ a quite rational approach to most things you do. You can be so rational at times that you almost seem to lack emotion, and when you are faced with an emotional situation, you may have a bit of a problem coping with it. You have excellent capabilities to study and learn really deep and difficult subjects, and to search for hidden fundamentals. At full maturity you are likely to be a very peaceful and poised individual.
If there is an over supply of the number 7 in your makeup, the negative aspects of the number may be apparent. The chief negative of 7 relates to the limited degree of trust that you may have in people. A tendency to be highly introverted can make you a bit on the self-centered side, certainly very much self-contained . Because of this, you are not very adaptable, and you may tend to be overly critical and intolerant. You really like to work alone, at your own pace and in your own way. You neither show or understand emotions very well.
Your Soul Urge number is: 6
A Soul Urge number of 6 means:
With a number 6 Soul Urge, you would like to be appreciated for your ability to handle responsibility. Your home and family are likely to be a strong focus for you, perhaps the strongest focus of your life. Friendship, love, and affection are high on your list of priorities for a happy life. You have a lot of diplomatic tendencies in your makeup, as you a able to rectify and balance situations with an innate skill. You like working with people rather than by yourself. It is extremely important for you to have harmony in your environment at all times.
The positive side of the 6 Soul Urge produces a huge capacity for responsibility; you are always there and ready to assume more than your share of the load. If you possess positive 6 Soul Urges and express them, you are known for your generosity, understanding and deep sympathetic attitude. Strong 6 energy is very giving of love, affection, and emotional support. You may have the inclination to teach or serve your community in other idealistic ways. You have natural abilities to help people. You are also likely to have artistic and creative leanings.
If you have an over-supply of 6 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative traits common to this number. With such a strong sympathetic attitude, it is easy to become too emotional. Sometimes the desires to render help can be over done, and it can become interfering and an attitude that is too protective, rather than helpful. The person with too much 6 energy often finds that people tend to take advantage of this very giving spirit. You may tend to repress your own needs so that you can cater to the demands from others. At times, there may be a tendency in this, for becoming over-loaded with such demands, and as a result become resentful.
Your Inner Dream number is: 1
An Inner Dream number of 1 means:
You dream of being a leader and one who is in charge. You want to be known for your courage, daring, and original ideas. You seek unconquered heights. People may get a first impression that you are very aggressive and sure of yourself.
Ooh…my day off has come and gone. I kind of fear what my ticket queue will look like when I get back to work. Then again…I’m sure that a lot of progress will have been made today…right?
…right?
I gave Sharon a call last night. It was good to hear from her after a long while. She’s truly one of the few people that seems have a good grasp of what makes me tick and how my mind functions (which, considering my shifting moods is quite a feat). I told her about some of my troubles, and she made quick work to remind me about who I am.
So, I’m feeling a bit better today, though not fully out of this low. I know I can climb out of it soon enough though, so no worries, eh?
I’m not really sure what’s going on as of late, but I’ve been finding myself in a bit of a rut.
(Oh no, not another one of thoses posts…)
Yeah, well. I’ve been down since the end of last year. I don’t want to get stuck in one of those “is there all there is to life?” frames of mind, because they’re never productive. However, I do wonder…
Man…
More than anything this year…
I need to find peace. I need to be at peace with myself. I need to be at peace with the world. I don’t have that now. My heart constantly feels heavy. I lie in bed at night praying for some sort of reprieve: I still believe that one day it will come.
I’m glad that I still have that hope, because if I didn’t…who knows what would have already happened to me.
Oh God, what is wrong with me? 
Scorpio (Oct. 24 — Nov. 22)
There is a promise of eventual tranquillity once you complete your experience of fatigue, anger and frustration. Happiness will greet you at the end, so it’s worth all your strenuous efforts. And the sky insists that it is very close at hand.
I tend to poke fun at Filipino dramas because they’re most often overwrought. Subtlety is often overlooked. I usually can’t stand them. Whenever my parents pop one in the DVD player, I tend to flee for the hills. Now, my parents were lent a couple of DVDs of a TV serial from our neighbor. Each DVD is 4 hours long. When I say them watching, all I could do was roll my eyes. I mean, the series just kept going and going. Every time I ventured downstairs, they were engrossed in the story. I was getting annoyed by it.
However.
The unthinkable happened. Somehow, the soap-opera twists and turns lured me in. At first, I was kind of poking fun at the show:
“Oh my God, her pregnancy is so fake.”
“Someone shut that kid up!”
“Holy, overacting!”
After a while though, I got used to the whole thing and started paying more attention to the cheesy soap-plotline. Whenever I went downstairs, I’d ask my parents: “so what happened?” Forty hours of drama later, I’m sitting there with them watching the finale, almost totally absorbed. Frankly, I’m kind of embarassed.
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