Monthly Archive: August 2007

My music notes – August 2007

Some interesting purchased singles:

  • Further Seems Forever – Pagan Poetry
    I was just browsing around to see if anyone has done any Björk covers and found this track. Using an electric guitar instrumentation gives the track a totally different feel–I’d say this version is quite unsettling (even more so than the original). Even so, it’s a faithful cover, and I don’t mind feeling displaced for a few minutes.
  • Télépopmusik – Breathe
    Mellow. Ambient. Makes me want to buy a Tridel condo.

Recent CD Purchases:

  • Queen – Greatest Hits
  • City and Colour – Sometimes
  • Nickelback – All the Right Reasons
  • Queens of the Stone Age – Songs for the Deaf
  • Justin Timberlake – Futuresex/Lovesounds
  • Feist – Open Season (Remixes and Collabs)
  • Björk – Innocence – EP

I think about mid-month I felt the urge to head to the malls to just consume. When I stopped by HMV, I found a lot of CD that I wanted on sale. Pretty bad for my wallet despite the discount. Feh.

Ring the alarm

Well, it seems that the unexplained occurrences are continuing to happen. Circumstances are really starting to make me wonder what in the world is going on.

Last night, as we were all settling in after dinner, the smoke and carbon monoxide detectors started sounding an alarm. I left my room and wandered around looking for the cause. The carbon monoxide detector was displaying 0, so it wasn’t sensing anything. I hesitantly ventured to the basement, hoping that there was no fire. There wasn’t. My father, half asleep and resting for his night shift woke up and seemed to be in a panic. After about 15 seconds, the alarms turned off. What the heck caused all the alarms to go off? All of them are plugged electricity based, and don’t use a battery. And, I guess when one of them goes off, all of them follow. It was such a weird set of circumstances.

I thought it was just a one-time deal, but this morning as I was getting ready for work, all of the alarms went off again. Eh? I looked back up at the carbon monoxide detectors and saw 0. I checked all floors of the house, and there was no fire. My mother was looking panicked this time. We quickly opened the doors to the house, and most of the windows. If it was carbon monoxide, we wanted to get as much fresh air inside the house as possible. Unlike last time, the alarms didn’t turn off by themselves. They just kept going. I didn’t know what to do. I went to the top floor smoke detector and pressed the button on it. That’s when all of the alarms stopped. What in the world? That’s just strange!

My mother and I both had headaches, though that might just have been from the loud alarm. Regardless, she called the gas company to see if they could send someone over. They told her to evacuate the house. So she was yelling for me to get out as well. I was almost ready for work, so I told her that I would just get my stuff and head out. She seemed frustrated that I wasn’t rushing to get out. Well, I did get out, and while on the main roads I saw a fire truck rushing over to our area. I figured that they were going to the house to check it out. When I finished the drive in to the station, I gave mom a call. She said that the firemen didn’t get any carbon monoxide reading in the house. The said it was possible that car exhaust from the garage was maybe coming into our house, so we should just be sure to air out the garage before closing it. I somehow don’t think that’s the cause (why would the carbon monoxide detector read 0, but go off?), but hey, what do I know?

So strange. I hope my parents aren’t getting freaked out…
(because I know I am…sort of…) :???:

Some congratulations and well wishes

I want to send some congratulations and well wishes out to a few people I chatted with last night.

First, I’d like to congratulate Ron on getting accepted into med school. It’s been a long long time coming for the guy. It’s gratifying to see someone’s hard work finally pay off after a long battle. I was observing my MSN list the other night and saw that someone was congratulating him for some reason, so I figured that he had good news. I kind of knew what the news was ahead of time.

So, kudos to you, Ron. I knew for a long time that this was the path you were heading toward. I’m happy to see that the door has been opened for you.

Secondly, I am absolutely thrilled for Darlene right now. Yesterday, at work, I was observing her names on MSN. They went from her anticipating some sort of news, to waiting for an overdue phone call, to being resigned to fate. It had been a while since I’d chatted with her, but I figured that she’d need some cheering up. I knew exactly what the news was about. She’d been trying to find a high school teacher position and after trying a lot of times she was starting to lose hope. That’s understandable considering that we’re only a few days from the start of school. Well, without giving out specifics, I showed her that teaching was what she was destined to do–it was written in the stars. I told her that tomorrow would be another day, and to get out all the bad vibes that night so that she would be ready to break down the doors by the next morning. All in all, I hope I made her feel better and helped her get some self-confidence back.

So, I prayed for her. Today, while at work, I got an important message from her: “JASON!!!” She didn’t need to explain. :)

Congratulations, Darlene. I’m damn proud of you. Never lose faith.

Lastly, I just wanted to mention Julius. I didn’t chat with him last night, but I caught wind of his recent health issues.

Get better! Down time == Time to ruminate, which isn’t helpful. :eek:

Running log: 2007/08/29

OK…I’ll try to be as coherent as possible…but I’m trying to get this in before midnight. :P

For yesterday’s run, we ran the same route that I did on Sunday. It wasn’t as bad as the run on Sunday, but it was still slow going. By the 30 minute mark, I was becoming completely demoralized. I was far behind where I was at 30 minutes at the previous run. My legs just kept going though. I tried to stay upright and smiling, but I admit it was tough. By the time I got back to the store, 50 minutes had passed, and I was completely ready to rant about how I sucked. However, the whole group was waiting at the stoplight looking quite happy. They were cheering me for making it back. I was about to announce how I was dying, but instead I asked: “how far was that?” The run leader looked at me and said “oh…just under 5.” I didn’t believe him at all because he had this horrible smirk on his face. He followed with “nah…that was really about 6.” He still had that smirk. That’s when I heard someone else say: “That was 6.8K!”

Well hell, no wonder I was taking so long. As it turns out, it really wasn’t the same route as the one we ran on Sunday. Back then, we followed the main roads. Today, we went through the winding trails, which added considerable distance. Honestly, I was happy I made it that far, but I was also feeling a little angry: that run was a bit overkill. Still, I now know I can make it that far–I just can’t do that every day (yet).

Today, we all planned on running an easy run, however, my body still hadn’t fully recovered from the hard run. This recovery run was kind of torturous. Most of us were running so slow. We were just way too tired. By the 3rd and 4th kilometre, I was struggling to keep up a mild jog. Well, physically, that’s to be expected, I guess. Overworking the system just leads to injuries. Everyone made it to the end, but we all knew that we just wanted to go home and take a good break from running. No more for now! Ugh.

Thinking about self-realization

Holy crap, I’m tired right now; I’m tapped out from running. We made a new distance record today, but I’ll save that entry for tomorrow.

You know, it almost scares me that August is just about over and done with. Time is relentless. Psychologically, it seems like it’s gaining momentum as I’m getting older. Thing is, I’m still quite young. I can only imagine that time will seem like the blink of an eye when I become really really old.

I’m now 25 years old. I’m still in the process of sloughing off the old shells of the past, and I know I’ll be doing that for a while to come. Yeah, the law may consider me an adult, but I know deep down inside that I’m just not there yet: I still feel like a kid. I think that I’m OK with that. Let’s be honest. I don’t know if I’m in the right career field. I’m doing what I’m doing because I’m OK at doing it and it’s allows me to earn resources to explore what I want. Some days I almost don’t know who I am–those days are rough. Thing is, with regards to these types of feelings, I know I’m not the only one: I know I’m not alone.

I know some people my age seem like they’ve got their life together. Some are truly in a good state, while others are just putting up a front. Whatever the case though, why should I compare myself to these other people? I know it’s sometimes inevitable to look over at your neighbour and envy their stuff. Still, no one’s circumstances are ever the same. I don’t know the details of how anyone got to where they are. All I have knowledge of is my own state–and even that knowledge is shaky at best. As such, trying to compare is a futile exercise, no? This is why I think the whole self-realization process is so damn important. If it’s going slowly…well, that’s the way it is. All that matters, I guess, is that I’m making the effort.

The new haircut

This exchange happened this morning.

Colleague 1: You got a haircut yesterday.
Colleague 2: I did.
Colleague 1: Did they use #2? Your hair, it looks like #2.
Me: What he’s really trying to say is: your hair looks like shit.

Pause for a beat. Laughter followed.

Running log: 2007/08/26

Last Wednesday, I was on my way to the RR from work when I was suddenly stopped 5-10 minutes away from the store by bumper to bumper traffic. I usually have my trip timed out nicely so that I arrive there a few minutes before the class, but the traffic was really throwing things off course. After 15 minutes of little to no progress, I thought I’d just bail. So, I missed that class.

By this morning, that meant it was 5 days since I last ran. I figured that there would be some consequence to it, but I never imagined that running would be as tough as it was. We ran a 6K path, and I was struggling after the first 10 minutes. My legs felt like lead. I was far behind the others, and really fighting to keep moving. Seeing everyone so far ahead made me feel like crap psychologically. Thing is, the people that attended today were generally the people always in the front of the group. So, right at the beginning I knew that today would be a rough one. The started off really fast, and I tried to keep up, but in the end the pace was just too much for me and I fell behind quickly. The group’s run leader kept an eye on me and came back to ask if I was alright. I told him that I was hurting but I could keep going. I had no choice, I guess.

Yeah, every runner has these days–I just seem to have them really often. I doubt myself continuously when I run.

Why am I so slow?
Why do I bother if I can’t be competitive?
Why am I just so bad at it?

Well, despite that, I keep at it because I really am still quite amazed that I’m even able to do something like 6K. There’s a genuine good feeling that comes out of completing the run. It’s an odd balance of good and bad. Being that that’s true, it’s no wonder that it fits into my life like it does–I seem to be all about various dichotomies.

Unexplained occurrences

Oh man, I’m at a loss with regards to how to explain some strange occurrences that have been going on in my room over the past few nights. Two nights ago, I fell asleep with the TV switched to the 24 hour news channel. I usually end my day catching up on the days events, so that wasn’t all that strange for me. Anyway, I ended up waking at 1:30 in the morning. I first thought that the light from the TV must have woken me. However, I noticed that my radio was also on. I had to really focus my mind to understand what was going on. I looked at my clock radio and turned off the music. I played with the switch and played with the buttons and saw that the alarms were set for 4 am and 5 am–nowhere near midnight or 1 am. So, I can’t say that it was the alarm that turned it on. I don’t remember turning it on myself. I would have had to flip over somehow to turn it on because it’s a couple of feet from the foot of the bed. It’s pretty unlikely that I did it, which makes me wonder, how the heck did that happen?

Last night, I woke up at 4:30 in the morning because the hum of the electric fan roused me from my sleep. Thing is, I don’t remember turning on the fan at all. Usually, if I have to turn on the fan for sleeping, I turn it it to my direction and set it on low. Any stronger, and it’s just far too loud. So, imagine my surprise to find the fan set to medium, oscillating toward the closet door. It would oscillate enough to hit my head, but just barely. That doesn’t make sense to me. The remote control for the fan was on the floor, but I would have had to really stretch far out of the bed in order to grab it and turn the fan on. The TV was on, but the volume was all the way down low.

None of this makes sense! My door is locked! Could I be doing this in my sleep?

I told my mom about these occurrences. She got mad at me, telling me not to scare her. I don’t blame her for not wanting to hear these stories. I’m not saying that ghosts or spirits are doing these things. I’m just saying that right now I can’t explain any of this. :neutral:

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