I spent a good chunk of today lying in bed, and not cleaning my room as I had intended yesterday. For whatever reason, I was feeling more down about things than usual, and I just wanted the world to disappear for a moment or two. Of course, that’s not possible, so instead I slept.

I honestly don’t know what was going on. At one point midday, I had to accompany my mother to the grocery store. I started to notice that I was feeling some anxiety about being outside. In the store, after recognizing my mounting stress, I asked for the car keys and just got out of there. What was that about? Am I developing some weird neurosis? I dunno.

When I got home, I figured that I had to do something that would really make me feel better. I put on my running shoes and went for a run around my neighborhood–which is something I hadn’t done before. Even running, though, didn’t really do much to alleviate my mood. Having eaten at a Japanese buffet the night before, I was feeling heavier than usual. As a result, my run was less than ideal. My legs felt like lead, which is a familiar feeling. Seems I get that way when I eat heavily. I completed a 5K route, but it was at a ridiculously slow pace (even by my standards, it was slow). So, combined with the stifling midday heat, my run just made me feel worse.

I might normally go to sleep early and hope that the new day would bring a better state of mind, but I’ve already slept so much. I don’t know. Tomorrow, I have a run in the morning, and I’ll be going meeting Hui at Yorkdale for dinner and a movie, so maybe everything will be better after the fact. Just need to put today behind me and go forward.