I had a bit of one of ‘em crises that I like to get once in a while 
. Well, I find that I have to go through them in order to maintain perspective and keep view of where my life is. Anyway, as I was reading the newspaper, I found a familiar name being quoted by one of the columnists, talking about the state of the city. See, I worked very closely with that person for a period of one year while we were organizing orientation week 2004. Three years have passed since then. It seems that he’s still finding causes to champion, while I’m sort of just here stewing in my very average life. It’s as if the fire I once had has since gone out. I suddenly felt inadequate and had fleeting feelings that I was simply letting my potential go to waste. What an awful way to start the morning, let me tell you.
I spoke to a couple of friends of mine about the situation, and they helped me to see that right now I’m where I should be–if I wanted to be somewhere else, I would have already gotten it because that’s the type of person I am. This is really something that I’ve said so many times to myself in the past. In fact, I’m feeling a little bit sheepish right now that I actually lost sight of that tenet. Even though I’m not doing something revolutionary with my life at this very moment, that doesn’t diminish any of the accomplishments I’ve had in the past. I suppose that I tend to be my own enemy in that regard: I mentally downplay everything, perhaps out of humility or just genuinely thinking that whatever it was is no longer worth mentioning.
Maybe, once the conditions are right, I’ll be right back in there, fighting for various causes and championing something that needs championing. Of course, if life remains as it is today, I guess I can learn to accept that.
Right? 
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