Monthly Archive: December 2007

Shall we call it a day?

I came in to work early today in order to leave early. I had no intention of staying late in the office. The other guys had the same idea, and we were all in by 9.

At about 2:30, my manager asks us: “What do you think? Shall we call it a day?” We all agreed and were off soon after, leaving the people in the other departments toiling away at their desks. I realize that we were sent home just because he wanted to get out of there as well, but at the same time it was an awesome gesture. All in the spirit of giving, no?

Running log: 2007/12/23

Puddles, puddles everywhere!

The last time I went for a run was on the 12th, so it’s been a while. With the Resolution Run happening at the end of the year, I decided that I really needed to get back to practise, even if it’s only up until the run. It’s a 5K run just meant to get yourself in the right state of mind for the new year. Well, even though I know that 5K is manageable, I didn’t want to show up really rusty. Never mind that I’m likely going to be right at the end…I just don’t want to be hurting by the end of it. So, this past Saturday I was totally resolved to make it to this morning’s running club practise. When I woke up, I looked out the window and saw that the rain was really falling down hard, but it also seemed to be rather intermittent. So, I let out a big sigh, got dressed and headed to RR.

So, this wasn’t the first time I’ve run out in the rain. However, it’s the first I’ve done in the rain in much colder weather, with large pools of water turning the sidewalks and roads into a weird gauntlet of ice patches, blocked storm drains, and cars whizzing by. I realized early on that I wouldn’t be able to go all that fast. The coach slowed down yet again to keep me company, but after 20 minutes I told him that my heart rate was just too high. I told him that he should just go ahead and join the others. I knew the route, and I wanted to go at my pace–I didn’t want to make someone wait around. So, he went ahead, and I was on my own.

I ran a good part of the run on the roads because the sidewalks were full of ice and pools of water. Even on the roads though, streams of water made for a wet experience. While running uphill, the water became a little deep and fast moving. So many times, water got into my shoes making for a very uncomfortable experience. I might compare the feeling to stabbing pins suddenly attacking your feet. After a short while though, the pain subsides and all you’re left with is a squishy feeling.

*squish squish squish*

After a little while, I didn’t even notice it. I couldn’t run on the road when I got to the bigger streets, so I was stuck dodging things on the sidewalk. You know, my feet were already so wet and gross that I eventually said “screw it!” Instead of attempting to find a better route around some puddles I just went right through. Sure, more water got in, but it’s not like I was going to get any drier. The rain was relentless. I was at least expecting to get some breaks in the rain like I’d noticed at home, but no–it just kept on coming. I didn’t notice juts how much water my pants were soaking up, but in the last 3K I noticed everything was ridiculously clingy.

I eventually got back in one piece, 8 minutes later than my last 10K time. I was alright with that all things considered. I mean, I’m out of practise, and the weather was bad. The faster peeps actually made it back in the same amount of time as they would on a drier day.

Heh. Maybe one day I’ll be like them. Meanwhile, I’m just doing what I can.

Coarse and wavy

Holy crap. I don’t have the type of hair that’s conducive to having a lot of hair length–it’s far too coarse and wavy. And yet, I still insist on trying to grow it out because longer hair would be nice. It’s at 3-4″ right now and it ridiculously hard to manage. I usually end up using a good amount of gel, but probably not enough, so it usually ends up as a big mess of set hair in the front, and unset hair flying off in the wind. Hate! I tried going without gel, but all my hair just went off in different directions creating a mass of weirdness. I tried combing and combing in an attempt to tame the waves, but the waves can’t be killed! :evil:

So yeah, I think I’m just going to give up and go back to a shorter hair style. I think I’m just going to ask for something spiky and manly. I can’t complain about something like this anymore. :wink:

Allowing myself to be content

Oh hey…being so close to Christmas, I’m surprised that I haven’t yet written an entry describing how I’m not in the holiday spirit yet. I seem to do that every year. And yet, this year I don’t think I can. I don’t know whether it’s more of a perspective change, or if it’s more to do with maturing, or if it’s just a blip on the graph, but I think I’m sort of allowing myself to be content this year.

Think about that for a moment.

I’m allowing myself to be content. What happened in previous years? Self-sabotage maybe? I dunno. Maybe I was just feeling under pressure and felt like there was just so much more to achieve, so much more to reach for, know what I mean? Well, it’s not like that’s changed. I mean, there are still lots of goals I’m gunning for. Those goals are what give me the drive to keep pushing forward. However, I think that for this year (at least), I recognize, that I’m doing…OK. At least, OK enough. What I’m giving myself now is probably the best gift I’ll get this holiday season.

First reactions

You know, reaction at work has been better than expected. For most of the day, I was a little too self-conscious about trying not to show the braces, so I was consciously altering my lips positions, resulting in slightly altered speech patterns. Basically, I was speaking as if I was hiding my teeth. Well, in the coffee room one of my coworkers finally sussed out that something was different. Another coworker came in and joined the conversation. For the one who found out, he was surprised. I guess he thought that it’s not like my teeth were too crooked or anything. I told him that I had the money and figured that I might as well get it done. He laughed at that. The other guy was saying that he probably needs ‘em too, but really doesn’t want to. I told him about how I was kind of aching. He asked if it hurt. I said it didn’t…but that it’s more like a bit of discomfort. Well, that’s sort of true. I mean, biting down sort of kills right now, making the act of eating tough. However, it’s not like it’s a sharp pain. I read somewhere on the Internet that the ache is comparable to the feeling that comes after being punched in the mouth. I announced that to my coworkers and they a good laugh out of that.

So far so good. As soon as I knew that some of them knew, I relaxed my lips and probably let the braces show a bit more. My speech patterns became a little bit more normal. Go figure.

So, as I mentioned, I’m feeling sort of achy. Due to the new pressure, my front teeth are uncomfortable when I put more pressure on them. I tried eating a chewy egg bun this morning, but that was really tough. I ended up not eating at work because I had no desire to bitch and complain as while making attempts to ingest something. I can already tell that my bite patterns are a little bit different. When I try to bite down, I’m feeling resistance in new places. It’s interesting. I really hope this process progresses quickly, but safely.

Rails

So…

I’ve got to wear these for 24 months? Oh man…

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Nature’s cycles

I find it sort of interesting (obvious…but interesting nonetheless) how modern life and activity cycles seem to mimic the way nature behaves. Right now, work feels like it’s easing and slowing down a little bit. I was talking about it with my coworker as we were out fetching lunch. There’s this urge that we have to just not be at work. Like most people, I want to relax and be with loved ones. This slowing down of activity kind of coincides with the shortening of the days. The solstice will roll around, the year will end, and soon enough everything will begin ramping up again.

So what about the summer solstice? I mean, the urge to not be at work is pretty high during that time as well, isn’t it? I guess I’d argue that the urge to get out of the office is just so that we’re able to do higher energy things. During the summer, you don’t take time off work in order to stay at home and relax, right? Not like winter. Well, you could…but it’s less likely.

I was just thinking that no matter what, we’ll always be inextricably linked to nature’s cycles, whether consciously or subconsciously. There’s always a bit of synchronicity at play, no?

Three-legged stool

The other day, while my dad I were shovelling the driveway, he started wondering out loud about what he’s going to do once I’m gone if there’s ever such a heavy snowstorm like the one that just occurred. He thinking of finding a service that would clear the driveway for him. I insisted that I was only a phone call away. I was serious about it. If he ever needed help, I’d come back in a heartbeat. He seemed hesitant though, like he didn’t want to be bothering me. The fact that he’d rather call on outside help sort of irks me.

I worry sometimes. My father is getting old. He’s not as strong as he used to be. Sure, he has a snowblower to help clear things, but is it enough? I’m sure my mother could help out. She’s used to lifting heavy patients at the hospital, you know? Though, that’s not really the point I’m trying to make. More and more, they’re getting to the point where my help would be more and more useful. At the same time, this is the point in my life where I need to pull away and form a strong independent foundation for my own life. It’s the act of striking a balance between these two needs that is sort of troubling me.

I’m not the type of person that can just leave them alone. It’s always been the three of us. It’s like a three-legged stool isn’t it? If you take away one leg, you won’t be able to sit on it like before. Although, I suppose this isn’t necessarily the best analogy, right? The two of them are more than capable of living well without me. No matter what, they’ll find a way to manage. I guess though…even though that may be true, I still intend to be there for them because I love them. And I know that they’ll be there for me in the same way.

Things are already starting to become more complicated, aren’t they?

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