In my relaxed state and unprovoked state I think of myself as a reserved and introverted person, but I’m totally aware that I’m capable of swinging way over to the opposite direction as someone loud and extroverted. It’s like there is a constant battle between the extremes and my sense of self is the battleground. Like I’ve said before, I am an outgoing introvert. Thing is, as of late I’ve been feeling like I’ve been withdrawing from others. At work, I’m perfectly content listening to music, blocking out the world and focusing on coding. There’s nothing wrong with that, but the feeling is a little bit too constant for my liking. It’s the same feeling I had back in August. So strange–I almost want to say it’s sort of cyclical.

I do believe that withdrawing can be a very good thing. I often see it as a chance to recharge my spiritual batteries. However, something is different this time around. I don’t know. Something is a little bit unsettling but I can’t put my finger on why I’m feeling this way. For some odd reason, I think I need to actively combat it somehow. Man, I dunno.

I’m not terribly worried about my mind state. I just…need to get through this.