Monthly Archive: October 2008

An afternoon on the patio

Today our PM seemed to be happy with the way things went over this past week so he decided to release us early. Although, he and the team lead wanted to head to a bar patio at Queen and John to have a few drinks and we were all invited. As much as I’ve been foul and isolationist, I decided that it would be best to join in this time. As I keep saying, I don’t normally drink, but I did put back two Labatt 50′s and a pint of Rickard’s White.

I drew the line after the third one because I knew I had to drive home. I didn’t head for the subway right away because I knew I had to burn some of the alcohol off. So I decided to walk a few kilometres to Yonge and Bloor. About midway through I started feeling the need to visit a bathroom, but I figured that I’d be able to hold it. When I got to the station the urge became stronger. When I got back to my car, sitting down was tough because everything shifted around and I was feeling pressure where there was none. I did make it back home on time, much to my relief (HA!).

Oh, but anyway, back to the Friar & Firkin for a moment. Once in a while I write about cases where the Venn Diagram of my existence and the TV world have small places of overlap. Today I had one of those cases. See, Queen and John is right by 299 Queen Street West, formerly known as the CHUM-City Building. That place always has a lot of TV stuff going. Just the other day Fall Out Boy were doing a QA session there. Anyway. On the patio, I spotted this guy carrying his little dog and having a seat at the next table over. He looked familiar to me but I couldn’t pinpoint exactly where I’d seen him before. I didn’t want to stare at him either because that would be rude, embarrassing, and other unpleasant adjectives. Oh, but it finally clicked. The guy was one of the judges/choreographers from So You Think You Can Dance Canada: Blake McGrath. I kind of laughed to myself when he ordered himself a big old plate of french fries. I guess the dude needed the carbs, yeah?

Anyway, to those that make a big deal out of today: Happy Halloween. Hope everyone has fun!

Weaving the pieces of the story

Just something random this morning. When I walked into office this morning, the receptionist had a tarot spread laid out. She’s dressed up as a fortune teller and had the cards out to add to the effect. She was away from her desk, so I took the opportunity to peer at what she had laid out. My mind immediately weaved together a story from the archetypal pictures.

So, this is how the spread looked. At the centre was The Tower reversed, crossed by Death. Would indicate that at the spread is talking about some sort of sudden physical and transformational change. The basis card was the 9 of Swords picturing someone awake at night, crying in bed. The near past card was the Queen of Wands reversed. The Queen of Wands usually portrays someone as a beacon of health. With it reversed, it’s kind of indicating that it’s failing. The near future card was the Wheel of Fortune reversed indicating that something will happen a bit fast, but perhaps out of control. The possible outcome was the 7 of Wands indicating a struggle. The hopes card was the 10 of Pentacles reversed. That 10 usually indicates a good comfortable rich life. With it reversed my mind went to inheritances. The outcome card was the King of Pentacles reversed. Reminds me of someone that would normally be benevolent, but the joy would no longer be there.

This is how the story went in my mind.

There was a woman who recently fell out of good health and was hit by the news that she was suffering from a cancer of some sort. It was devastating news for the whole family to be sure. She vowed to fight against it as best she could, but in the near future the cancer would progress really quickly. She will pass away, leaving a hefty inheritance, but that’s cold comfort to her husband. It will affect him deeply, changing his personality, if only briefly due to grief.

So, when the receptionist came back, I asked her about the cards and she said that she intentionally pulled out some of the more vivid cards from the deck. The imagery in the Rider Waite deck is strong. I kind of enjoy being able to weave together stories from the pictures. All in all, it’s a good way to exercise the mind to see connections and weave together something that’s totally coherent. I can totally see why some people use the cards for meditation purposes.

The Halloween killjoy

My team at work has been keen on the idea of attempting to dress up en masse for Halloween. There’s a prize for the group that highest percentage of people dressed up. The prize: a free team lunch. As such, brainstorming over a common costuming theme has been the topic of discussion at the end of our daily scrums. The ideas evolved over time. I think the first idea was to dress up like different characters in the Village People. It seemed simple enough, but it took a while for them to realize how gay that would have been. And no, I don’t mean “gay” in the derogatory sense, but totally in the homosexual sense. I think the idea shifted to a James Bond theme. Over the past few days there was a rethink and they settled on a “douchebags” theme. Yup. No shit.

To be honest, it sounds like it would be something interesting to watch. God knows though that I don’t want anything to do with actual participation. I am not of the Halloween spirit; I don’t think I ever really got into it. I did go trick-or-treating once when I was younger, but once was enough: frankly, I found it over-rated. Dressing up in my work environment? That just doesn’t work in my mind. I think I have too mch dignity for that.

Umm…this coming from someone who sang Bohemian-bloody-Rhapsody via karaoke in front of everyone. Aaaanyway.

I think more than anything I just come off as being a killjoy. During today’s scrum my PM said with disdain “you know [Jay] isn’t going to dress up at all tomorrow.” I wasn’t amused, but yeah, I just nodded in agreement. Hey, if somehow the group wins the team lunch and I’m not welcome, so be it. I’m not going to get worked up over a free lunch. Actually…I probably would get worked up. I’d probably become even more grumpy than usual and start spitting at everything in disgust.

As a side note, holy crap I’ve been in one hell of a funk as of late. At the end of the day, I end up leaving work feeling like I’m horribly overworked and no one seems to give two shits about it. I’ve not been happy. It’ll pass. Tomorrow, I’m going to try a different approach to work. I’m going to take frequent breaks and be away from my desk for long periods. Hell, there are others on this one task–I’m sure the other people can handle a bit more. :roll:

I just want to get tomorrow over with. Boo!

That weight thing

Everyone’s got reasons for running. All are valid, as long as they’re personal. I mean, for example, if you’re running for someone’s approval or to get someone’s attention, you’re doomed to fail–no doubt about it.

Of all reasons though, I’d say losing weight is probably among the top three reasons. Hell, I know it’s one of my reasons. It’s not one of the top ones, but it’s certainly on my mind. If I said it wasn’t I’d be lying to you because on some level we’re all vain bastards, right? Running allows me to not worry way too much about calorie intake. That’s not to say that I’m pigging out nightly because that would just be stupid. It’s just that doing such an activity allows me to indulge a little bit more than I’d be able to without doing it. I just indulge sensibly. Knowing that you’re doing something in order to become healthy subconsciously triggers something that kind of prevents you from being a total idiot.

This coming from someone who just came back from all-you-can-eat sushi. Oh, but I ran 3K just beforehand. Blah.

So, why am I mentioning this? Well, over the course of my running experience my weight has been declining slowly. Right from the beginning, I refused to give up certain foods altogether and opted for a more balanced approach. Apparently it worked because it helped me shed a small amount of weight.

Earlier this year I went on that trip to Japan where I wandered around the city for hours in humid heat–I’d imagine that’s what it’d be like in the Devil’s armpit. Or jockstrap. Anyway, when I came back I lost a good chunk of weight. I didn’t get too excited though because I knew that once I was back on my regular routine the numbers would even out. I was right–I gained a little bit back but overall I had a net loss. At some point I was even flirting with breaking the psychological barrier of 200. When I was dehydrated I was actually below. That didn’t last long though because really, given a choice I prefer to be hydrated, thanks.

During the half-marathon clinic we were running ridiculously long distances in the hot heat. I was burning 2000+ calories on some runs. Thing is, despite this big energy spending my weight loss plateaued. I was actually increasing a little bit. The gain, I would attribute to actually building muscle mass for running. My quads and hamstrings are already rather large. That being said, they got even meatier. I choose to attribute the weight gain to muscle because even though there was a slight creep upward, I was actually shrinking. For the longest while I was using the 2nd notch on my belt. Soon I started using the third. Now, I’m actually using the fifth hole. So, that’s physical evidence of my body changing. I’m sort of waiting for my 36 pants to start sagging. That would be insane. The plateau though is a sign, in my opinion, that my body is now used to running and that I need to branch out and cross-train if I intend to push the trendline downward again.

Since my race last month, like I mentioned, I’ve been off and taking it easy. You’d think that there’d be little effect, but interestingly enough I’ve noticed that the numbers crept back up. I think I’ve gained 2 or 3 pounds in the past month. Well, obviously, if I’m not burning the calories, I can’t afford to be putting away what I normally do over a week.

So, yeah, I’m glad to be getting back into an active lifestyle. I seriously need to find another activity though for my non-running days. Maybe one day I’ll break that 200 barrier. I know that due ot my large frame I’m always going to be weighty, but I can still do my best to keep myself from getting out of hand.

Running log: 2008/10/28

Today was the start of the new half-marathon clinic. There were a few familiar faces and whole lot of new people to get to know over the next, oh, 18 weeks. We all had to give introductions and a good deal of them were joking about running at the back.

WHATEVER.

Seriously. I’ve been through the clinic once, and I know enough to know that these people are still going to be far ahead of me–um, not that speed matters. As I’ve said before, there will be faster people, and there will be slower people. Get over it!

Well, this morning when I was putting my running gear into my backpack, I figured that the weather wouldn’t be too cold. The forecasts seemed to indicate that it would be above freezing. As such I brought shorts instead of pants. I was only going to bring a t-shirt, but in a moment of good sense I decided to bring a light jacket. So, tonight, as we all stepped outside I was briefly cursing my clothing decisions because the wind was bitterly cold. I know most people were looking at me and considering me to be a brave soul. Yeah, I totally get it. I was asked, “aren’t you cold?” Hell, yes! How could I not be? However, I also knew that during the run I was going to start sweating profusely and that I was going to warm up enough to forget about the chilly weather.

We had a 3K route to cover. I think it must have been a result of it being the first clinic night, but damn, everyone was blazing along. I kept up for the first little bit, but as I did I could totally sense that it was way too fast for me. I eventually slowed to a more comfortable pace, which frankly wasn’t too slow at all. The two clinic instructors were running close by. I know both of them, and they know me–they know how I function. So, I didn’t feel like I had to speed up to keep them going. As we went along, precipitation started falling down. At first I thought it was light rain, but through the glare of the street lights I could tell that what was falling was lighter than the average raindrop. Flurries! Holy!

We got back to the store only a minute or two behind the rest. I’m not being arrogant or anything like that, but I kind of get the feeling that we’re going to lose a few people to injuries. If people don’t ease up, things are going to go wrong. I need to not get caught up with the rest of them if I want to be injury-free myself. I plan on coming in as much as possible. Barring any strange weather events, I should be on track. I am going to use these few months to become stronger and run a better half. I’m psyched!

Wonky themes

I’m trying to upgrade my theme, but I’m having a bit of trouble. So, please don’t mind the site if it looks a little wonky over the next little while. All is well.

Filling in gaps

Today was just one of those days at work. I spent the majority of the day filling in gaps in a project that’s supposed to go into QA in a few days. I was constantly asking “Why wasn’t this done? Why wasn’t that done?” Was it my fault for missing the requirement in the document I wrote? Was it just missed in development?

Out of sheer frustration, there were times when I just wanted to say “fuck it.” I didn’t want to care any more. Thing is, I’m not the type that can just let go when it comes to work. That can be a good quality. I mean, it indicates that I really care about what I do: I want to push out a good product. On the flipside, that type of attitude tends toward a level of obsessiveness that can mentally flog me.

What I need to work on is separating out what I do and do not have control over. For example, I have no control over when people choose to take sick days. Even with tight deadlines, if someone just can’t be there, it’s not my responsibility to totally do the work of two people. And, it’s not my responsibility to worry about how this affects the resources on the team. All I can do is do my best.

Still. Shiiiiiiiiit. :-(

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