Today was just one of those days at work. I spent the majority of the day filling in gaps in a project that’s supposed to go into QA in a few days. I was constantly asking “Why wasn’t this done? Why wasn’t that done?” Was it my fault for missing the requirement in the document I wrote? Was it just missed in development?
Out of sheer frustration, there were times when I just wanted to say “fuck it.” I didn’t want to care any more. Thing is, I’m not the type that can just let go when it comes to work. That can be a good quality. I mean, it indicates that I really care about what I do: I want to push out a good product. On the flipside, that type of attitude tends toward a level of obsessiveness that can mentally flog me.
What I need to work on is separating out what I do and do not have control over. For example, I have no control over when people choose to take sick days. Even with tight deadlines, if someone just can’t be there, it’s not my responsibility to totally do the work of two people. And, it’s not my responsibility to worry about how this affects the resources on the team. All I can do is do my best.
Still. Shiiiiiiiiit. 
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