Who am I to feel blue?

My eyes are pretty tired right now. When I look in the mirror my eyes are red, betraying my need for a bit of sleep. It’s in this state that I came to thinking about how I’m kind of stuck–neither here nor there. There are days when I just want to complain about everything in my life. Usually it comes in the form of worry about not having something or not having achieved some nebulous milestone. I end up wallowing for a while up until I come to the realization that things aren’t that bad. I mean, I have a tremendous amount to be thankful for, right? I do not want to be ungrateful for having things that X amount of people are still working hard to achieve.

So. What am I supposed to do when I’m feeling blue? Does my situation invalidate the fact that some days I kind of just feel like crap? Sure, in the big grand scheme, my worries are a drop in the bucket. In fact, anyone reading this right now is probably in the same boat: we can afford Internet in some manner, and have access to modern technology. What then? I guess, if I look at my relative situation, I can get a clearer picture of whether I should be concerned. However, comparing myself to my peers isn’t exact either because everyone’s situation is different. There are so many variables to draw clear conclusions.

All that’s left then? Well…I guess that just leaves me to myself. Aha! So, figuring out where I stand should be based on goals that I’ve defined for myself. However, where do these goals come from? Goals inevitably relate to my peers in some way or another, right? That goes back to the earlier issue. Hmm…well then I have to consider why a goal is being defined. If it’s solely for the purpose of getting one-up over others is it a good goal? Will the goal benefit society? Is it something that will make me happy or someone else happy? In the end, I’m going to have to strike a balance between selfish desires and true altruism–too much of either isn’t healthy.

So, if I’m feeling kind of sad, isn’t that an indicator that maybe I’m setting standards for myself that are not beneficial?

Uuuuugh. Whatever. I have a problem with over-analyzing. Some days I just need to remember my humanity and let myself experience whatever I need to experience. Purge.

Possibly related posts:

1. Starting to feel like Christmas
2. Feel the rhythm
3. I feel fine