It’s been a while since I’ve had a dream that I can remember. Usually, they’re really vivid: packed with small details that seem to paint an interesting picture. So, when I have a dream that’s relatively simple and to the point it worries me. It’s not that I believe that the dream is more likely to come true. My worry comes more from the fact that it feels like the point that my subconscious is trying to get across is just there. Usually I expect the messages to be shrouded and wrapped in multiple enigmas.
Anyway, what am I going on about? This past Saturday night I had a dream that I was basically fired from my current job by an old PM who had left a long while ago. I could sense there was a lot of confusion over the firing. There was some conversation beforehand, with me plainly wondering where I’d gone wrong. I don’t remember what the responses were, though I know I was getting worked up and upset. Even in my sleep state, I could feel the chemicals due to the generated emotions running through my body. I remember giving an ultimatum of sorts. I asked “well what…do you want me to come back tomorrow or should I just not show up?” With a stern look and a hint of regret, he nodded and said “you’re not to show up tomorrow.” I felt like I was punched in the gut–it was entirely shocking. I started walking away, sobbing at the rejection. I had given the job my best, and apparently it wasn’t good enough. And that’s when I woke up.
What I find interesting about this dream is the fact that I’ve dreamt about being fired in the past. The last time it happened, I didn’t feel so bad–there were no weird chemical reactions going on. This time is quite different in that regard. This time the dream hit me kind of hard, and I woke up feeling worn out. What’s going on then? Well, these days everyone’s feeling twitchy and looking for a change. One of our team members has chosen to leave for another job. The rest of us are just worn out and tired. That would explain some of the things in the forefront of my mind. It’s no surprise that the topic has appeared in a dream. Seriously.
I’m in no position to interpret the message, although on a simple level I’m guessing it’s just telling me to leave. Nonetheless, a dream is a dream: I does not have enough rooting in reality for me to act on it, right?
*grumble*
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