There really is something a little messed up with having to do your job and talk about aspects of it that don’t apply to you because of the imminence of the end of your employment.
“Oh, but we don’t have to worry about that because we won’t be here.”
Seriously? What the hell? That really plays havoc with your mind because it really underlines the idea that you are expendable. Granted, that’s true of any job at any company. I mean, it can be assumed that things will continue and that it will be business as usual even if you’re no longer a contributor. Still, when you have a countdown doom clock looming over your head it’s very hard to keep your morale up.
For me, most days it’s easy to deal with because I know that I have to remain professional and continue to provide the levels of service that are expected of me. On some days it’s a lot more difficult. It’s like we’re happily helping the executioner go shopping for an axe.
What kind of messed up situation is this???
On these tougher days I need to remind myself that it’s just a job, and that it’s just business. It’s the way things go, and it’s not personal in the least. It’s not a commentary either on the quality of work that I’ve produced. I know, they know, everyone that knows me knows that I care about my work. So, I can take comfort (perhaps) in knowing that it’s not because of anything I did. To everything there is a start and an end. Still, having that knowledge isn’t helping my mood in any way.
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2 comments
kyleen says:
Fri. February 12, 2010 at 8:32 am (UTC -5 )
See, you go thinking that way, and they’ll find another place with you when your time is done with the task at hand.
Honestly, security is what you make it. You’re doing fine! ^-^
Jay says:
Mon. February 15, 2010 at 9:45 pm (UTC -5 )
Yeah, you’re right about that. I’m not going to speculate on what’s going to happen to me past March, but…I suppose I can trust that no matter what happens everything will work out in the end. I don’t say that because I necessarily believe the universe is sympathetic (though…it kind of is
), but rather, I know that I am in a decent position at the moment.