Monthly Archive: May 2010

Invisible Gloria

I put off writing about this yesterday because I was still getting used to a couple of things about the topic at hand, but I guess now’s as good a time as any. I’ve never had a pet growing up, much as I wanted the responsibility and companionship. As soon as I moved to my own place I decided that I’d make it a point to get one. I considered adopting a dog, however, I knew that my situation and lifestyle wouldn’t be conducive to dog ownership. It just would be fair to the poor beast. As for cats, they were always an option, but I just never got around to adopting one. Also, I kind of feared for my leather couch. That’s pretty much how things have been for the past few months.

A few weeks ago I was chatting with a friend and offhand I suggested that I wanted to get a cat at some point. He jumped at the idea and suggested that I could take his cat if I wanted. He was having trouble keeping the cat at his place with his mother not getting along with pet. Well, I hesitated for a little while, but I decided that a trial run was in order. It just so happened that he was going away this long weekend, so this would be my chance. The deal is that if things go well this cat-sitting gig might turn into a permanent home.

Yesterday, my friend brought Gloria in with most of her things. In the carrier, you can tell that she was feeling awkward. When we opened the door, she slinked her way out before bolting for the kitchen. After assessing the situation, she jumped up on the counter and hid behind the blender. Apparently it gave her enough cover to be “hidden.” After a while, my friend got her down, and gave her a brief look at my condo. When he let her go, she dove under the couch. After my friend left, I was just left on my own to figure her out. Part of me was hoping to spend a little while getting to know Gloria and for her to get used to me, but I knew that she was kind of anxious and unsure of her new environment. I knew that she had to come out on her own terms and that I couldn’t force her to come and say hello. I couldn’t help myself though, every now and then I’d peek under the couch to see how she’s doing. She’d stare right back.

Knowing that she wouldn’t come out I ended up retreating to my room early in hopes that she’d just start exploring right away. I left out half a can of tuna for her to eat, and some fresh water to drink. The litter box was clump free and ready to go for her. I slept well. When I woke up I checked the state of things. She ate a fair bit of the tuna, and the litter box was used. The leather couch wasn’t scratched at all, but I saw a few paw prints here and there, indicating that indeed she did explore. I was wondering where she was, so I ducked under the couch, and yup, there she was.

I set out new food and water for her, so I was hoping that she’d go eat while I was awake. She was too timid for that. At one point I decided to just duck under the couch and say hi. I called her name out a few times and enticed her to come closer to me. She allowed me to start petting her and I obliged. I was relieved to hear her purring as I scratched her head. I tried to coax her out from under the couch, but when I did she scrambled back to the darkness. That tells me that she’s kind of comfortable with me, but still scared of the environment. I’ll take that. It means that she’ll definitely come around once she gets used to the place. Heck, I left my condo for an hour this evening and when I came back she moved the the darkness under my bed. When I greeted her, she just stared at me. When I sat on the bed she bolted back for the couch. Small progress, I guess. We’ll see how much progress she makes overnight.

So yes, this is the start of another journey for me, isn’t it? I’m sure that she’ll do well and eventually realize that I’m there for her. Meanwhile, all I can do is hope for the best.

Inspired shepherd’s pie

One of the side effects of watching Food Network is that I often find myself with urges to take on various cooking challenges mimicking what I see on TV. Heck, they make it seem so easy, right? I have a small bit of skill with cooking. I can do it! When I’m flipping channels one of the shows that airs on Food Network that I will actively stop for is Eat, Shrink & Be Merry. Why that show? Well, they spend one show focusing on a single dish, which is always a healthier version of some restaurant counterpart. The stuff that they make always seems to put up a good fight against the counterpart in a side-by-side taste test. More often than not I’ll come out from watching that show thinking, “hey, I want to try that, too.” You may recall that a while back I successfully made their Shockolate Cheesecake. Low fat cheesecake that tastes rich? How can you lose? Anyway, this week the network aired the episode where they made shepherd’s pie. Well, the recipe seemed simple. It wasn’t that hard of a decision to try it out on my own.

I ventured out to Wal-Mart to gather the ingredients. I wanted to use the Yukon golds like they did, but ultimately I opted for convenience by buying pre-cut cubed potatoes that just needed to be put in the microwave then mashed. I wasn’t keen on peeling a proper butternut squash so I hoped to find something in the freezer aisle, but I came up empty. So, in the end my topping consisted only of potato. Maybe next time, right? For the meat and sauce, they used chili sauce. I decided to use sriracha because that’s what I had on hand. Besides that, sriracha is so flavourful. A little goes a long way. When everything was assembled, they sprinkled some Parmesan cheese on top to get some melted and bubbling action going. For mine I decided to mix in some panko bread crumbs with the Parmesan. I figured that it would make the top even crispier and delicious. Well, how did the end result turn out? Have a look.

I totally made a good call with the panko. The contrast in textures was just amazing. The taste was very balanced and delicious. I’m totally happy with the results. And to think, I didn’t use a single bit of butter or cream for this. Crazy. I swear, the next thing I’m going to tackle from them is their Better Butter Chicken recipe. It’s a bit more involved than this shepherd’s pie, but I want to see how well their spice blend in the recipe works out.

Clogged slots and fishing for strips

I was tidying up a bit around my place when I got a little bit derailed. I took a couple of sheets over to my shredder and tried to put them through the slot. Things wouldn’t budge. I tried switching the thing to reverse to see if it would spit something out, but nothing came out. Once again, I switched it out of reverse and tried to feed it a sheet. Still nothing. I thought I’d somehow broken the machine. Upon closer examination the thing was thoroughly clogged. So, I decided to open up the shredder and see if there was something I could do about it.

Generally, I’m not the type of person that really likes taking machinery apart just to see how things work. Sure, the guts of a machine can be interesting, but really I just expect things to work when expected, know what I mean? I wonder how the heck I ever got into engineering with that attitude, eh? Anyway, it took me a while to open the shredder up because there were unexpectedly a couple of screws hidden under stickers. When I got it open, it became obvious that the thing wasn’t just clogged–it was well and thoroughly obstructed. In the slot, I could see a dam of shredded paper jamming the thing, basically preventing the rolls from spinning at all. How did it get to that point? Well, I think a little while ago I switched the machine to reverse, just to see if something would get spit out. After a while, nothing. However, seeing what happened, I figure that the reverse motion picked up a pile of the shredded paper and jammed it up top. Well, of course, in retrospect that was a horrible idea. I guess that reverse setting is really only meant for emergencies. Seems silly when I say that, but at this point I see no other purpose.

Anyway, since the slot is thin I wasn’t able to fish out any of the paper with just my fingers. Nearby I spotted a thin allen key, so I used that to dig in and hook out as much paper as I could get. For the next half hour I was fishing out tiny shreds of paper. The paper was really lodged in there. It wouldn’t come out that easily. The strips were flying everywhere; a few even hit me in the eye. The end result was a mess on the carpet. How stupid, eh?

What’s the lesson here? Well, I guess the point is that I should know better than to use machinery for a purpose other than that intended. Secondly, I seem more than capable of taking shit apart without breaking it when I put my mind to it. Thirdly, I need to empty the damn shredder.

Takes a real man to wear purple

How many times am I going to second guess wearing my purple shirt? Wear it with confidence or don’t wear it at all! Damn.

Force rest

Generally, people say that post-race you should take one day of rest per mile raced. So, for a half-marathon that equates to about two weeks. I can’t say I disagree. I mean, I need time to heal and get my legs back to a state where I don’t feel achy or wobbly. At this point the immediate soreness that I felt on Monday has faded. That doesn’t mean that I’m ready to go though. Internally, I’m still working though a few fatigue issues as is exhibited by yesterday’s post. I might be ready to go by Sunday, but meanwhile I need to work harder on being lazy. After work today I decided to take a long walk. About 65 minutes later I was really feeling a lot of discomfort under my left heel. If I were to compare it to something, I’d say it felt like it was bruised. Makes sense to me. So, question is: why am I not resting my legs more and just taking it easy? Why am I forcing myself to stay active? What does it prove? Why am I willing to risk injury? Seriously. I really need to force myself to really consider the importance of rest and regeneration. These rules of thumb exist for a reason.

Where’s that energy source?

Maybe this has come up with a couple of people that I’ve spoken to in the past while, but I’ve stated that I think that I have this hidden pool of energy that I can tap into in times of need. Do I actually believe that? Well, if I consider how I’ve somehow managed to do plyometrics classes on Sundays even after doing 20K runs, it tells me that, yeah, there’s something there that I can call on when, by all accounts, I should be tired. As I’m writing this though, I’m genuinely facing exhaustion. This kind of bothers me. I mean, yeah, I recognize that I’m only human and that I have limitations that I can’t ignore. However, if I think about it, if I’m this tired during my down time, how am I suppose to handle marathon training?

Good question.

Hate: beach towel

The topic of conversation for today’s improv class was emotion, which frankly scared the crap out of me. I mean, I know how my state of mind can get–I’m typically a very emotional person in general. So, the act of playing things out and finding myself totally engrossed by an emotion intimidated me. Indeed, those few moments where I really had to crank up the intensity really left a mark on me. As I’m sitting here at home, hours removed from class, I’m still feeling skittish because those insane intense emotional body chemicals are still floating through my veins. It’s such an odd state to be in. I kind of feel like I’m going insane because at this point I’m supposed to be feeling neutral but deep down I’m just emotionally fatigued. It all doesn’t add up.

The one activity that stuck out for me today was one that involved each one of us receiving an emotion and a random word or phrase to use as a vehicle for that emotion. When the teacher pointed to us, we would get into the specified emotion just by saying that one word. Depending on how he raised or lowered his hand we were supposed to heighten or ease up on the level of that emotion. When the activity was described, deep down I knew that any emotion involving some sort of angry character would be too easy and perhaps too scary to do. It wasn’t a scariness from the audience perspective that I was worried about. No, I was more concerned about how I was going to experience a heightened state and what toll it would take. Well, it just happened to be the case that I was given the emotion of hate, and my words were “beach towel.” Uh oh. So, he told us to start feeling that emotion and start saying the word to ourselves to warm up. Immediately, I put on the crazy eyes, sunk down slightly, slowed the breathing down, lowered the voice, and started feeling it. Man, I was really feeling it strongly right away. The the teacher finally pointed at me, I started sneering quietly and began escalating it as he raised his hands. As he did, my breathing became more and more intense. I tried to get more and more spiteful and more and more demonic as he told me to escalate things. Even when he wasn’t pointing at me I kept the level by keeping the stance and the breathing going. Eventually he asked me to raise it to a level 10 intensity, at which point I was full out growling “beach towel” with as much spite and venom as I could muster. I even had spit and drool start coming out of my mouth as I ranted. It was messy and primal. Eventually he had us come back to normal and then sat us back down. Quietly I was tingly for the next few minutes. I needed to consciously breathe slowly to start regaining my composure. It was intense and I felt like I had experienced something that really should never have come out. All of this is actually pretty tough to describe.

Anyway, I really need to sleep this off. Not only has class exhausted me but I also feel like there’s this cloud hanging over my head. I need some time to clear everything out.

Pain is temporary, but glory is forever

So…I didn’t plan for this to happen. When I arrived at the race, I wasn’t planning on running hard or striving for a new personal best. Not at all. It’s not because there was a lack of fire in the belly, but rather I knew that my training hasn’t been consistent. I did have a plan though. In past races I was a bit loose with my intervals so this time around I told myself that I’m going to rely on the ten minute running intervals that I’ve been training with. I would do my best to not break the run during the intervals. Conversely, I would make sure not to skip any walking intervals. In terms of pace, I planned to keep a steady 7:07/km as best I could in order to make 2:30. For the first half I wanted to run slightly slower so that I’d have enough energy for the second half. With all that in mind, I went out feeling confident that no matter what happened it would be a great day.

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