Everyone goes through ups and downs. I guess one of the keys to dealing with the low points is handling them on your own time and not out in public or in a professional setting. Perhaps unfortunately for me, I’m more of the emotional type. Whenever there’s something strong brewing inside me, I have to deal with it no matter where I am. I seem to have a lot of trouble bottling things up for a more opportune time. As such I can’t help but feel like some days I’m sort of perceived as someone emotionally fragile, or unstable.
Bad.
I had one of those days today at work. I don’t know what the triggers were, but over lunch I had to take a long walk to clear the mind. As I wandered the city I started to dwell on the idea of “failure” and how it applies to me. Overall, I was just in a horrible state, and I seemed to just deteriorate as the day continued. At the moment I feel like the mini-crisis has passed, but I’m spending time just trying to figure out why this has been an issue in the first place. It’s tough. I mean, there’s a lot of good in my life. If I focus on all that, there really shouldn’t be any reason for me to sink to the dark areas. However, something just causes me to absorb these lower frequencies and it’s making me nutty. I’ve been told that I need to tap into the higher frequencies that surround me. Easier to say than to do, right?
Tomorrow is another day. I’ll go to work with my head held high. I won’t let one day define who I am and what I stand for. Enough of this shit.
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