I haven’t really talked about it much, but if I’m being honest with myself it’s pretty obvious that I’m sort of a depressive type. I have an overactive mind that tend to pick everything apart mercilessly. Usually it’s to my detriment. That’s one good reason why I try to keep myself busy as much as possible. Too much idle time leads to a lot of bad things.
In all honesty I’m trying to work on it. That’s why I wrote those ten affirmations in January. I still acknowledge the affirmations to be true, but they’ve sort of fallen out of use. Part of the problem seems to be that the text was out of sight and out of mind. At this moment I just printed out a copy and I’m going to post it somewhere visible. Can’t say that I’m not doing anything about it, eh?
I’m not really sure if there are really any winning conditions such that I won’t be in this state of natural funk, but I’m at least hoping to get to a point where I’m not wishing for night to fall just so I can get back to sleep. I do my best to not let it affect my day-to-day life. When I’m coaching, more often than not I’m on. When I’m at work, I’m serious. It’s just that when I’m at home and spending time with myself that’s when I let my guard down and everything starts to swirl around. Yeah yeah, I’ll find the key eventually. Meanwhile I’m just going to keep fighting the good fight. I know that I will get through whatever problems that may come my way.
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