I spent this past Monday just mulling over stuff going on in my life. There was a fair bit that I was attempting to access in the depths of my mind, but for whatever reason I was having a lot of difficulty. Whenever I got close to anything sort of painful my mind actually managed to redirect my thoughts. It was a little disconcerting because I was hoping to really make more progress in terms of dealing with my issues.
It’s rather fascinating how we have such strong self-defence mechanisms. I mean that’s what it is, isn’t it? The body is just doing what it can to save you from experiencing pain. For me, I’m kind of a big fan of the whole attitude of “the only way out is through.” I believe that that’s usually one of the best ways of dealing with issues that can’t just sit idle. So imagine my frustration when instead of working through the problem I kept on redirecting myself out into the periphery. Ugh! Well, at the very least I know that I’m unconsciously avoiding self-harm. All the same I really need to work these issues out. It’s the only way.
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2 comments
Hui says:
Thu. November 24, 2011 at 11:22 am (UTC -4 )
I don’t know if I agree with everything you wrote there. Yes it’s important to confront the things in this world that are bothering you, but I find that a lot of (maybe even most of) life’s problems have no easy solution, and some don’t have an immediate solution at all… problems which I consider ‘presently intractable’. When thinking about such dilemmas my head ends up going in circles, leaving me frustrated and feeling helpless. Only when I realise that over time a lot of these problems can be resolved/lessened or even disappear on their own do I stop worrying and attain some sense of inner peace. That’s just my view though.
Curiously a lot the times with me it’s the opposite. When I start thinking about these problems my subconcious continually pulls my thoughts back into the fray, and I really have to consciously divert my thoughts elsewhere. The key for me as always is to do more ‘doing’ and less ‘thinking’, and if nothing can be done immediately than don’t think about it too much either. Apparently for me this is easier said then done.
Jay says:
Sat. November 26, 2011 at 11:58 pm (UTC -4 )
Sometimes avoiding and deferring is a good coping mechanism. I’ve gotten accustomed to doing so, but for some things in my life that approach just isn’t working anymore. That’s why I’m taking a different way and trying to bust down the walls. It’s not easy going, but I’m finding that approach useful.