I had a strange dream earlier today during a long nap. It wasn’t as detailed as other weird dreams that often have, but it still kind of affected me in unexpected ways. I don’t remember too many details other than some disembodied voice telling me that I should “rightfully” be in med school right now.

Eh?

I think I was wearing a lab coat, and seeing some people, but I don’t really remember. Anyway, when I woke up, I was in state of confusion: “Wha?? I’m a doctor? Med school? mmmm…” It took me a few moments before it finally occurred to me that it was just a dream and that I was really in the field of computers. I don’t know. Such a weird dream: kind of brimming with hope. I wonder though, what was the source of this dream? Why did I hear such a voice? Why the emphasis on the word “rightfully”? These area all questions to which I will never have answers to, and it’s mildly freaking me out. I mean, hey, it’s a bit late to be switching career paths to something as rigorous as medicine. Besides that, I’m not confident that I have the discipline to be able to do something like that. If there’s anything that my COM E experience told me, it’s just that. Then again, maybe it’s just that I really didn’t fully enjoy the programme (maybe not until later once I got the hang of things).

Sometimes I do wonder if I’m in the right field for me, of course. I’ve wondered since my early undergrad career. Sure, I’m alright at what I do for a living these days, but that doesn’t necessarily mean that it’s where I should be, right? Thing is, I know that there’s no big point in me rocking the status quo at the moment; I’m too busy building a foundation of sorts for the rest of my life (dream world, be damned). Interestingly enough, I have an inkling that I will change career paths in a couple of years. I don’t know how severe that change will be, but I think it’ll happen.

Man, I’m torn. Ugh. What the hell?